Dear Mom, the day my little miracle baby was born the neonatologist in his most pathetic sad voice broke the news to us that they suspected our little girl had Down Syndrome. I asked him, “does she have 10 fingers and toes? Is she breathing?” When his response was yes, I told him “well then give her to me so I can see her”.

What your feeling right now if perfectly normal. The feelings of sadness, uncertainty, grief this is all part of the process. Also know, that These feelings will not last. You may feel glimpses of them as time passes, but feelings of joy, love, adoration and being proud will far outweigh the not so great feelings. 

Worry is a tricky thing, isn't it? It creeps into our hearts, slowly climbing and growing like sticky vines on a hot day. But mama, our hearts were made to beat freely, without the constraints of future fears. Our children teach us to live in the present. No one has a crystal ball…

I never knew life could be so good. You might be scared or sad and I was too. It’s okay and even an important part of the journey to grieve. My baby girl is everything I never knew I always wanted and your baby will be too. After many years and many failed attempts to have a baby, Emmy is the one that stuck.

I’m just going to say it; I did not want a baby with Down Syndrome. Our oldest daughter has autism and I already felt overwhelmed by the demands of being a special needs mom. So with the realization of our 20 week ultrasound, and confirmed blood work solidifying the Down syndrome diagnosis, I was angry!